first day of 2010

新的一年里。本来应该开心的。。
但是，第一天，我就哭了。。
我真的以为我可以很坚强面对他，但我发现。。
我错了，我做不到，我也哭了。。
现在的我真的很想家。。我很想回家。。
留在这里过，我后悔了。。在这里，我哭了。。
回家，或许会好点。。。
我很想有个肩膀给我哭泣~~
但最终还是我一个人。。
还有几个月的路，我该怎样走？？
刚才哥哥打电话给我，我很开心，就因为这样，我更哭了。。
我也骗了他。我骗他说不会一个人回家的，但我还是一个人走回了。。
坐在宁静的路上，我哭了，边走边哭，越走越远，我哭得越来越大声了。。
我无法控制我自己，哭了，或许会舒服点。。
但两天了，我睡不觉~~我真的累了。。
哥哥发了一封信息给我，我哭得更大声..
**during my wedding,the most i happy cause have a such dinner with u,
mum and sister! anything not happy just tell me ya!! i will always support u..
...................................................................
**
看了，我哭了，永远会support me de people is my brother.. the only at now..

happy new year

yeah!!! a new year le lol...
now already is 2010....

now i am at kampar,my friends house..
haiz.. a bit regret that i dint go beck hometown..
cant celebrate with family.. they sleep already..
oh no.. i forget my brother already.. hehe.. leter go say with him..
but now i miss my hometown and my friends...
haiz... i wan go penang ahh.. wuwuwuw
my dear penang friends..
but must be happy^^
welcome 2010.. and byebye 2009...
i hope i will have a happy year...
all thing that me and my family want will come true..
wish them good in their working..
HAPPY NEW YEAR LOL...

*the first time i dint at home during this time...
but the first time i outside with friends..

today

今天是我第二次写了。。
终于终于又终于~~
终于这个星期连续三天的presentation完了。。
但是下个星期还有两个阿。。呜呜~~

也终于我从学校回到家了。。
很累很累。。脚很痛。。该死的高跟鞋。。
为什么一定要穿？？ 为什么我不会穿？？
现在的脚痛死了，又很累，走路去帮朋友拿launary
唉。。有热又累又痛，但没办法，她是我好朋友阿~~

烦恼烦恼又烦恼。。
谁可以告诉我，我到底要不要回家(hometown)
救命啊~~
很烦啊。。很矛盾啊。。
想回又不想回，也不能~~
好像没有一个是我的开心地。。
开心地，你何时来找我呀~~

* outside whether like wana rain already..
nowadays kampar whether is like that..
noon very hot,but night cold and rain..
haizzz.... me also same as the whether..

finally.. i wan to say to you.. gambateh for your present...

现在的我。其实应该在学校上课，反而我在家。。
为什么呢？？因为我逃课了。。
很不开心因为逃课。。
很不开心，因为某些事，整晚都不能睡，更不想去上课。。
但没有办法，等下有presentation，还是要去。。
唉。。都还不懂怎样去。。

人好像要病了。。热气。。
应该是少喝水吧。。谈都有血了。。

不懂

真的很不懂。。
最近的心情真的起伏不定。。
好像一时风平浪静，一时很多事情发生。。
前几天，跟朋友去买formal衣，哈哈。。
我终于又多一件了。但是，我很肥阿！！！呜呜呜~
这就是开心咯。。。

这几天都要presentation. 心情很紧张，又伤心，因为present得很不好。。
这就是伤心和紧张。。

最近家里也发生了某些事，超不开心的，所以也弄到我自己很矛盾。
想回家，但回到了，我又伤心，那又何必呢？？
所以这就是矛盾，压力，伤心。。

是不是很多心情勒。再下去，我怕自己也会疯。。

*计划了一份圣诞节礼物(因为没有时间，所以还没做，但现在用不觉了)

home sweet home

星期四我就回到了咯。很可惜，我没有出去，我在家里度过平安夜。
虽然我没有出去，但对我来说多一样啊。我生日都没庆祝了，更何况圣诞节？
看到别人收到礼物，我很羡慕，因为我没有，但。。。
哈哈，我想通了，没有就没有啊。习惯就好了咯，对吧？
虽然这次回来，只是在家里，但。。姐姐带我去吃海鲜哦。嘻嘻。
不错吧？

这只鱼很贵啊，RM40阿。。所以我吃了七十一块咯。。嘻嘻。。

开心的背后，往往有不开心的事发生。
天就是这样的对我，唉，得任命了。。
不开心的事也算了，不说了。。
更伤心的事，明天早上就要回了。。 呜呜~~

assignment

finally, i done my web page already..
but now i am still have to do...
teacher say our web page didn't include the price..
zzz.. have to do again.. haiz...
four days le.i and my dear frenz together do the assignment till morning.. haha..
are we crazy?? but no choice lol.. we have to do eat..
this few days fat again.. haiz..
we eat supper lol.. haiz.. hungry mah.. have to eat.. so fat le lo...

讲到assignment.. 我就想起了某些东西。。
人！！
人真的很自私，别人向我们借我们的report。
我们借阿，但我向某人借，别人却很自私的。
haiz。 我们也是辛苦做的阿。没有必要我们也不要借。。

mindnight

wakakaka..
u know now is what time already?
is already 4.39am le..
what am i doing??
i am still doing my web page assignment..
ahhhhhhhhhhh... hate it...
this few days also very late sleep ahh....
wuwwuwuw
not enough sleep ahhh..

头痛

现在是凌晨四点多了。也是雨天。。
我还没睡。哈哈（应该很好睡的）
但我没睡。。

两天了，伤口在隐隐作痛，很辛苦哦。
唉，没办法啊，没有药医。

hate

为什么？为什么我们要读webpage?
我读account的勒。。
以后会用到咩？？
真的很讨厌webpage...
make me crazy...
hate hate hate!!!!
y i cant done it??
y?? how to create??
y i have so many y?
who can help me??
救命啊~我不要读了拉。
没有信心，很压力。

haiz...

how can like that??
my msn can open..
y? who can tell me and help me?

assignment....
there are so many assignment here..
i feel so stress..
last year not so rushing also ahh...
wuwuwuw... harder and harder le..
i have no idea for my web page
i dunno how to start my web page...
who can help me??
only myself....

finaly

finally,i check my mail already..
but is it too many...
i just delete those facebook send to me de...
haiz... 2000 more mail...
how can delete??
== pengsan...

this few days whether very hot..
haiz....

fat!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate fat!!!
i am so sad, so many people say me fat already...
wuwuwuw..
i dont want....
i wan keep fit...
but how can??
all food infront of me.. cant control it...
help help help...!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!

UTAR

A POEM from UTAR FCI

I join Utar because its 'pien yi',

I also thought it will be a good uni,

but end i jalan jauh sampai nak mati,
because all the faculties telah dibahagi....
in UTAR everything is about money,

pay late then they phone tak henti henti

even worse the officers talk like your are seekor babi,

no manners no courtesy...
Admin is crazy,

you wanna find DSA they will ask you to go jalan from PA to PD

if you complain they will say dont be lazy,

remind again kena marah lagi...
If got class til malam nanti,

after 8 the air cond will mati,

when we complain heaty,

they say the building is empty,
meng meng still got security,
where got count as empty...
UTAR thought we are monkey,

payment also need to go different faculties,

from collecting receipt, filling in form to paying money,

From PC, PA, PC and need certified go PD ...
If your lazy please dont come to this uni,

coz UTAr bus service also need money,

they dont accept cash accept tickets what a pity,
70 cents if u want to beli....
people say come uni,sure can tiao yu,
mana tau whole uni oso 'beh khi',

got leng lui also treat us like sui yu...
toilet in UTAR very geli,

if it dont stink then your very lucky,

but the floors are very watery,
if you complain to the aunty,
they also tak peduli,
because they will be very penat if they really wanna cuci,
coz UTAR boyz dunno how to aim 'n' pee,
so it is very smelly...
driving in UTAR is a liability,

Every time you park its very risky,

no parking lot for student in the uni,

jaya one got but its not free,

if double park then put call me message but berhati-hati,
or else saman Rm300 lagi ...
food in every faculties also 'bu pien yi',

they will call out numbers with mic like pertandingan menyanyi,

want cheaper and niser food must go mamak kat tepi,

1 thing bad its hot and dirty ...
UTAR got alot of library,

small with insufficient facility,
going in also need to show ID,
people go in to walk and talk kat sana sini,
so students there are very noisy,
if your smart you know dont come in to study...
UTAR computer lab very mini,

Pen drive masuk lubang sure got baby,

pregnant with all the trojan, worm and cookies,

besides that the server very laggy,
in PA the lab is like CC,
student LAN games with any games terkini ...
UTAR staff dunno get how much for their salary,

if they have problem they will ask you tunggu sini,

change people also cannot solve it then they ask tunggu lagi,
then change people again also cant solve then very soli...
Chinese in UTAR is majority,

Dont know how to speak chinese then they will say you 'lan si',
good students always carry a electronic dictionary
so they will learn better for their study...
Dr Ling say UTAR is good so study disini,
but what is happening we also dont have berita terkini,
coz the moving to kampar is very lousy,

thats why all the good lecturers also wanna lari,
no one wanna go there as its a town like 3rd world country,
got PIZZA HUT got KFC but din hav MCD,
1 lame thing they have is MYFC,
trust me for that place is not counted as lousy...
assignment for GD banyak sampai mati,
rushing assignment setiap hari,
no need sleep macam zombie,

some more class will be 8 pagi,

so macam mana bangun ni,

end up kena barred lagi...
Utar is not very lousy,

if you like to 'tham siu pin yi'

after you come in you will terpendam dalam hati,
coz UTAR my choice is the tagline of this uni...
Before come in kena sedar diri,

Got money please go oversea,

study abroad not like me,
if got choice cabut lari,
or end up like me always memaki.....

UTAR

UTAR is what? is my school lol..
now i am studying in utar..
i also dunnoe y i will choose UTAR..
is i regret??
maybe yes,maybe not.. i also dunoe..
nowadays.. UTAR have many new laws...
next year i am studying degree...
UTAR tell me that didn have short sem anymore..
how come?? so hate.. have to study all in long sem...
but now UTAR is quite nice and beautiful..
the new blocks all big and nice..
wa,the air-cone... cold till i cant in inside 4 one hour.. =.=
and the last thing is for me is quite special..
the toilet light will automatic open when you go in...
the first time i saw it.. hehe
and it is "lu tian".. ^^
so i dunoe did i choose the correct university??

crazy

am i really crazy??
now already 12.05 am, but what i am doing now?
i am still on9..
tomorrow 10am class...
some more tomorrow night have test..
but i didn study..
what i am doing??
y i dunwan study??
is i crazy already??
help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不知如何形容的心情

哥哥终于结婚了，想对你说，恭喜你，新婚快乐。
白头偕老，儿孙满堂。。
而期待很久的我，也终于期待到了。
照理说，我应该很开心才对，但原来心中并没有那么开心，
而为什么呢？自己心中应该很清楚。
但是可以怎样呢？都过去了，只有接受。。
而再提也没有用了，智慧更加辛苦。
因为都过去了。。

sick

i sick liao..
gan mao already..
cry le..
and so feel so tired..

tired and haapy

today was so tired..
we go see utar new block.. block i
omg~ it is so far have to walk to there...
from block i to block b hav to spend 15min to reach..
so tired have to rushing it..

and i am so happy that finally i didn become a leader
of mass com.. wakaka...